Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Sinister Minister pt. 1 (i need to vent)
Dear blog:
Once upon a time, there was this girl. Aww hell, it was me. Ok. So I met this guy. It was during a time that I was on a relationship hiatus. I had actually been on a relationship hiatus for let’s see…. two or shree years. I’d like to believe it was by choice. It ain't like I'm a boogabear with no future or options. Not many can resist my pretty brown round, sweet smile and pretty brown eyes. Conceited? No...just convinced. Anyway, I was doing well. You know. Faithful booty call partner here and there. I was cool with it all. Anywho, I was introduced to this guy via a family member to remain nameless. He came into my life at a time when I was all gung ho about getting more spiritually in tune with myself. Basically, January 1 – 30 of every year. We met on some “we’re just going to be friends” tip. I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend and he wasn’t looking for a girlfriend….or so I thought. It started off really good. I was diggin’ him ‘cause he was studying Theology. See, I was on this big spiritual kick so I thought he could help a sistah get focused and what not. I wasn’t looking for no religion. Just some spiritual upliftness, so to speak. He had just recently moved to the A and just wanted to make some friends. Great conversation…good company. I was on this big “everybody comes into your life for a reason” kick too. Shoot….I’m still on that kick. BEEN on that kick. Anyway, I believed that he came into my life to help me get on track…spiritually. We developed a profound relationship. Throughout the weeks of meeting him, I started feeling him. You see, our relationship became more than a teacher/student/friend type of thing We were really feelin’ each other. He even took me to his hometown to meet his family. They were giving his grandmother a birthday party. It was a big shebang. His mother even introduced me as her future daughter in law ya’ll. Man…talk about things moving fast. It was crazy. I mean, it was all good. At least it felt good. Man, I guess we both were feeling good on that trip. Literally! Within a week or so of returning to the A, I was expecting a visit from my Aunt Dot. (see entry "Period Woes..."). I’ll be damned if her ass stood me up! Yes, yes ya’ll. I was knocked up. OMG!!!!!! WTF?!? How’d that happen? I mean, (stuttering….) I KNOW how it happened. But damn…. I was having torn feelings. I was 28…wasn’t getting any younger. But…not married….no plans of getting married. I was contemplating relocating and making a career change at the time. Ooowee….what was my daddy gonna say?!? I was preparing myself for a severe tongue lashing. Do I really want to take that walk to the clinic? I still felt guilty… Was it really worth that emotional and physical pain all over again? Naw man…not at all. What's a girl to do? Decisions....decisions. Stay tuned for part 2. It only gets better....or should I say worse? It depends on which way you're looking at it. *sigh*
nda
Once upon a time, there was this girl. Aww hell, it was me. Ok. So I met this guy. It was during a time that I was on a relationship hiatus. I had actually been on a relationship hiatus for let’s see…. two or shree years. I’d like to believe it was by choice. It ain't like I'm a boogabear with no future or options. Not many can resist my pretty brown round, sweet smile and pretty brown eyes. Conceited? No...just convinced. Anyway, I was doing well. You know. Faithful booty call partner here and there. I was cool with it all. Anywho, I was introduced to this guy via a family member to remain nameless. He came into my life at a time when I was all gung ho about getting more spiritually in tune with myself. Basically, January 1 – 30 of every year. We met on some “we’re just going to be friends” tip. I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend and he wasn’t looking for a girlfriend….or so I thought. It started off really good. I was diggin’ him ‘cause he was studying Theology. See, I was on this big spiritual kick so I thought he could help a sistah get focused and what not. I wasn’t looking for no religion. Just some spiritual upliftness, so to speak. He had just recently moved to the A and just wanted to make some friends. Great conversation…good company. I was on this big “everybody comes into your life for a reason” kick too. Shoot….I’m still on that kick. BEEN on that kick. Anyway, I believed that he came into my life to help me get on track…spiritually. We developed a profound relationship. Throughout the weeks of meeting him, I started feeling him. You see, our relationship became more than a teacher/student/friend type of thing We were really feelin’ each other. He even took me to his hometown to meet his family. They were giving his grandmother a birthday party. It was a big shebang. His mother even introduced me as her future daughter in law ya’ll. Man…talk about things moving fast. It was crazy. I mean, it was all good. At least it felt good. Man, I guess we both were feeling good on that trip. Literally! Within a week or so of returning to the A, I was expecting a visit from my Aunt Dot. (see entry "Period Woes..."). I’ll be damned if her ass stood me up! Yes, yes ya’ll. I was knocked up. OMG!!!!!! WTF?!? How’d that happen? I mean, (stuttering….) I KNOW how it happened. But damn…. I was having torn feelings. I was 28…wasn’t getting any younger. But…not married….no plans of getting married. I was contemplating relocating and making a career change at the time. Ooowee….what was my daddy gonna say?!? I was preparing myself for a severe tongue lashing. Do I really want to take that walk to the clinic? I still felt guilty… Was it really worth that emotional and physical pain all over again? Naw man…not at all. What's a girl to do? Decisions....decisions. Stay tuned for part 2. It only gets better....or should I say worse? It depends on which way you're looking at it. *sigh*
nda
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Girl you know just how to keep us all coming back. . . great write. . . I'm on the look out for part 2.
Brown Sugar How are you going to leave us hanging.
You and the savior still together
You and the savior still together
# posted by 
: Thu Oct 28, 08:46:00 AM
: Thu Oct 28, 08:46:00 AM
Ay ya'll...I'm going to finish it today. hee hee I started it last night but dammit...I was exhausted and fell asleep! It was my plan to even finish it now but...work is a'callin! Don't give up on me yet!
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